Listing the Eating Disorder lies.

by Elizabeth on January 15, 2013

Good morning! I hope your Wednesday is off to a great start. I am thinking of trying a 15-20 minute jog today when the weather warms up and legs permitting. If not it will be a rest day!

Yesterday I had something out of the ordinary for lunch (white pasta with alfredo sauce, chicken, and some veggies) and it brought up a range of different thoughts…

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I’ve made a lot of progress when it comes to flexibility with food. I used to not even think about touching something at mealtimes unless it was along the lines of a kale and quinoa salad with greek yogurt chia seed dressing (I’m sort of kidding but you get the point.) I HAD to choose the healthiest, most nutritious option. What I’ve learned though is, my definition of healthy needed to change. It’s not healthy to obsess about everything you put in your mouth. It’s actually really “healthy” (and challenging) for my mind to experience me eating fried chicken, things with butter, white carbs etc. There’s definitely something to be said for having a balance of health between your mind, body, and spirit. Your choices probably need to vary on different days to meet your needs on a more wholesome basis.

Back to lunch, about halfway through the meal my mind was racing with the thoughts, “What are you doing?”, “This isn’t healthy.”, “Why would you choose white over wheat?” and blah blah blah.

Well lovely mind of mine, I’ll TELL you why I chose it. From now on, I refuse to believe the lies American culture has thrown at me.

  1. Perfect body equals a perfect life.
  2. You have to look a certain way to have value.
  3. If your thighs are thinner and your stomach is flatter you will be happier.
  4. Don’t eat that. It will make you fat. And kill you.

THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH. A body is a body, they all function the same for the most part. The media’s goal is to make money, not to make us happy. Every person has problems, no life is perfect. Everyone has average qualities about them, yet we are all special.

From now on when I find myself wanting to compare myself to someone (whether real or airbrushed) I will try to send them some loving kindness instead. After all, they are a person with strengths and weaknesses, just like me. When I want to criticize my body for not being just the way I want it to be, I will practice gratitude. My thighs can run a marathon, so I love them. My stomach can hold a baby for 9 months, so I love it. My arms can carry all the groceries and a baby in his carseat into the house at one time (so my legs don’t have to go back out into the cold), so I love them too. Maybe they aren’t perfect in my mind’s eye, but maybe in reality they actually are?

My hope is in a few years (or shorter), I will look back at this post and think how much farther I have come and be thankful for what I learned along the way. After all, I have too much to live for and love :-)

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Intense stuff, I know. When it came time for dinner Joe had requested nachos and I was ready for anything that required little effort. Chili cheese chicken nachos it is!

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I hope you have an amazing day!

Question:

Is there something you really appreciate about yourself?

{ 26 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Kindal January 16, 2013 at 7:28 am

Elizabeth. This is. SO. RAD.

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2 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:05 pm

YOU ARE SO RAD!!!

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3 Erin January 16, 2013 at 7:49 am

What a very tough topic to tackle. I wish you nothing but the best in your journey with food. It sounds like you are moving towards more positive thinking.
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4 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:05 pm

Thanks Erin! That means a lot to me!

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5 Joe Sauvageau January 16, 2013 at 7:57 am

Your smile brightens my day and makes Noah giggle so I love that :)

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6 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:06 pm

Love you babe! I’m excited for Eddie V’s tonight :-)

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7 Carly @ Snack Therapy January 16, 2013 at 9:00 am

I love this so much. It’s actually ironic: stress is the worst thing a person can do to his or her body. Stressing about diet or exercise or calories is totally counterintuitive- it’s actually horrible for the body!

We all just need to enjoy life, right? :).
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8 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:06 pm

Yes Carly we do! It’s too short to spend stressing!!!

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9 Sarah @pickyrunner January 16, 2013 at 10:27 am

THANK YOU for jumping on this bandwagon with me and tackling the not-so-fun stuff. It really is a serious issue. Why do I have to choose whole wheat pasta over white every single day? Why can’t I eat mac and cheese for lunch isntead of at dinnertime? Who says a bowl of ice cream after dinner isn’t healthy? If I can run and push myself further each day, then that’s great. My body is just that. Mine. I’d rather live my life than be constrained to the barriers society has made. Too bad it’s a matter of mentally getting there that’s the hard part. But we will. I know we will.
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10 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:08 pm

I’ve really enjoyed reading your daily posts! It helps me so much to know I’m not alone and that other people out there are fighting hard too! So even though I don’t “know” you it helps to know we are both trying! Thanks for the comment Sarah!

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11 Alex @ therunwithin January 16, 2013 at 11:11 am

Great job! it is a process of keep talking against and acting against your ED thoughts. Way to go! Also nachos for dinner, perfection
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12 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:08 pm

It was perfection for sure! Thanks Alex!

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13 Amanda @ .running with spoons. January 16, 2013 at 12:41 pm

I’m willing to bet that you’ll be looking back at this post in a few short months and see a big change – the freedom that comes with breaking free of those horrible ED thoughts is kind of addicting and makes you want more and more :D Society really does feed us a lot of lies, and the more often you challenge yourself and break them, the more you begin to see that it’s all nonsense.
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14 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:09 pm

I hope so too Amanda! You give me inspiration! Btw I think you are an awesome writer, photographer, and person!

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15 Lauren January 16, 2013 at 2:01 pm

I think achievements and certain events in life put EDs into perspective for the person. For example, your gorgeous son! I think when we accomplish or create something an ED takes away from us, we realize how much we’re actually leaving behind when we go to that “lifestyle”. After I student taught, a lot of my ED thoughts kicked the curb. I’m struggling now but the worst thoughts definitely have subsided because I learned to be a role model for my students.
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16 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 2:10 pm

Glad to hear you are through the worst of it! Keep fighting friend! Don’t believe the lies… you are perfect just the way you are :-)

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17 Lauren January 16, 2013 at 3:24 pm

Such a beautifully written post. I feel so fortunate to have found your blog!

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18 Elizabeth January 16, 2013 at 3:30 pm

Wow Lauren THANK YOU so much :-) This means a lot to me!

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19 Janae@ hungryrunnergirl January 16, 2013 at 4:21 pm

You are incredible! I love your blog so much! I love thinking about the amazing things our body can do (marathons, carry a baby etc) because then I no longer think about the flaws! Beautiful post!

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20 Kylie T January 16, 2013 at 4:43 pm

This is a beautiful post, Elizabeth. It is so good to be able to hear your wisdom and triumphs. I love that my body is forgiving and is showing me how awesome it feels to become strong (physically and mentally)!!!

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21 Jackie January 16, 2013 at 7:35 pm

Thank you for your honesty and having the courage to share your life with us. Not only are you taking steps to see things in a new way but you are giving hope to others who can relate and see that change is possible and it will be ok

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22 Leetra January 16, 2013 at 11:56 pm

Thank you for sharing a beautiful perspective I think every woman needs to adopt! I didn’t think from the title it would have anything to do with me, and now I just found myself rereading it for the third time. I think we all struggle with those lies. I’m going to read this every time I have a bad body day or feel like picking myself apart.
I just found your blog, and I love it!

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23 Karla @ myhighonlife January 17, 2013 at 8:25 am

As hard as it is for me to accept my larger body frame I do appreciate the fact that I am STRONG. If I were caught in a bad situation, I feel as if I could fend for myself. So while I’d love to be more petite while still being strong, I am trying to embrace my body type for all that it is!

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24 Kathy January 18, 2013 at 8:18 am

THANKS…needed to read another’s view of this this morning.

I lost 10 pounds this fall…eating very clean and I loved it while doing so but, reality struck HARD when the holidays arrived. My mind kept telling my hand to grab the cookies, breads and treats way too often 1pound up, 2 pounds up and as I weighed this morning…all 10 pounds are back.

4 months to lose ~ about 2 months to gain back~ ugh!!

I need to find the balance but the sugar cravings soooo get the best of me…..and then there is the…”why can’t I feel happy and ok with the way I look right now, with those 10 pounds”. (I am 5’6″ and 145) The mind is a powerful ~ crazy ~ weapon!

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25 Theresa January 22, 2013 at 7:06 am

I love this post! It is so hard to overcome all the things about our appearance and eating habits that are thrown at us all the time. I’ve been trying to come back from disordered eating and this post is so motivational to see how other runners are dealing with these same issues. Keep rocking on!:)
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26 Jenn February 23, 2013 at 6:50 am

Just came across your blog and love this post.
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